I am going to miss you!!

It is funny how we fight with the people that we love, we argue to prove our point, we detach ourselves from people who tell us the truth, but they think that we are against them because of our option.  "You asked?"  How we offer our option sometimes when it is not necessary.  "It is best that you not tell your truth about my situation." How we get mad when people don't agree with us or don't want to go.  "If you are my friend, then you would do it." TO HELL?!?!?! How we say that we are going to call and we find every excuse in the book.  "I'm busy this week, I will call them next week."  "I will email them, I don't feel like talking." "I will do it next week." 

Then when the person is gone, not able to touch, text or call, when their voice is gone; then you realize "why didn't I? What was so important that I could not just pick up the phone & call.  I have a cell that is on, Crackberry with Voice email, (people who are addicted to the Blackberry). 

When someone ask you to call, you don't know what they want, whether good or bad.  Call, answer the phone, answer the text.  Friendship is SOOOOO hard to come by, so few people are REAL friends.  Real friends don't force, real friends talk it out, real friends are there for you, even if you don't want them there. Real friends realize that you take me for who I am, whether you agree or disagree.  Real friends don't think everything pretty or ugly is about them. Real friends, don't ask you to make a choice. 

Life is short, life is wonderful when you have people around you with positive energy. Life is so much easier to understand when your circle of people try to know you.  We take for granted that we think that the person who we disagree with, argue & fight that they will still be there, WHEN you need them, or make up from them.  OUR mouth is nasty and words can not be taken back...we say things to people to be nasty & then we think and realize that they are right or I understand now.  Like, remember what your mother said when you were a child...now 45...You understand now!!!

We have to learn not to take the people who we say be love, care about.... friends, family and others for granted.  They are not going to be there.  Believe me, THEY ...MAY...NOT...BE ...THERE!!! It is always at the end that we regret, that we feel guilt.  No need to apologize, just don't take for granted, don't be rude, don't do it again.  Think about the situation before you speak instead or speaking without thinking

Kevin Madison - I will miss you, may the Father receive you with open arms.  You were a blessing to me in the past, you where a wonderful adopted brother and friend.  Who will never be forgotten.  I thank the Father for knowing someone like you.  May Blessings, Peace & Love abide with your Family at this time, may they always remember the wonderful, beautiful things that you gave to them.  You where placed here for a reason and left for a purpose.  Your job is done and you were promoted to be a guide to all who don't understand, who don't love.  Guide them to know that your heart and love was pure.  I will miss you and apologize for not being there when you needed me.  Bless

2X HAPPINESS

What makes me happy?
Walks in the rain
Reading a book
understanding that I am
learning who i am
i am
a black woman who does not know
who admits to being wrong without prove
a woman not weak in any fashion
strong but allowing to cry on some days and smile on others
trying to figure it all out
confused
loves to be loved
friend when you are not my friend
listen when time
talks when necessary
stops when asks
and pays when time
i am
a soul
that runs to freedom of life
a soul looking for a mate
you finish when i end
i feel you when you are away
i am
a woman
beautiful, black, sexy
nasty, yet sophisticated
educated, yet reserved
freak, yet loving
will fight if necessary but allow you to win
because really you are not worth it
i not going to get dirty for you
you are a waste of time
will sit, listen and observe before speaking your truth
speaking out of term is not lady like
a lady when necessary or rideordie- chose one
i speak ebonics
when needed, apply
i am
the one that cries for everything,
yet gentle
take me for who i am or don't take me at all
i am happy
i am me
i can only make me happy not you
i decide my destiny
my future
my goal
is there anyone who can say they are miserable
yes, because you are
make happy
make friends with yourself
make happiness you
i make happiness look good and make sadness want to turn the other cheek
i make me feel good and make me cry for the things that my heart is open too
i make my own decisions
whether good or bad
i learn from the experience
you don't have to agree
this is me
i can only live with me
i can only live for me
for me is who i am
thru the good & bad I love me
would i change to relive life again?
yes, but would settle for being me
you can change who you are, only if you want to
if you like it, I LOVE IT!!
i am learning to live me & no other
i am
i am
i am
a black strong woman who admits
the one that cries for everything,
learning who i am
a friend when you are not my friend
a lady when necessary or rideordie- chose one
what makes me happy?
walks in the rain
reading a good book
and
me
me makes me me